Saturday, September 18, 2010

It's coming to an end. And I am sad.

Well I thought I'd start with saying that the other day I filled my stomach with this delicious breakfast. Just part of a well rounded breakfast right? Sugar being the main food group of course. But my trip to Kneaders makes me realize that I only have a few more chances in order to fill my belly with this sweetness. Then, it made me realize that it's all coming to an end. My time in Utah is almost up and I feel like I wasn't given enough time. I've decided this now, that this is the worst feeling in the world. I have now realized that the tables have turned. I went from moving to California, missing Utah. To visiting Utah, and missing California. And now living in California, missing Utah over the past five years. This is not a good situation to be in, I am so confused.
I am in quite the pickle. I can't move to Utah, because I'm still in school. But I graduate in a year, will I be able to get a job in Advertising in Utah? Career, Money, Love, Family, Happiness? BLAH! I hate being an adult, and having to make a lot of long life choices that could effect my future whatever way I choose to go.

I guess I am thankful that I was able to spend the summer here, with my family and love. I got to spend the summer with friends, the boyfriend, and joining in fun family events that I haven't been a part of in 5 years. I needed this time away from California to kind of realize what I really needed. I love Utah, and I am so glad that I grew up here. I wouldn't take back any of the stupid and crazy things I did growing up here. The countdown begins, to me leaving. 2 weeks. Don't worry Utah, I'll be home for Christmas.


  1. NOOOOOOooooooo!! We haven't even hung out yet:( Just stay.... :D

  2. I can't believe your time is almost up. We didn't hang out nearly enough!! and the time we did we wasted two hours of our lives watching that lame movie! I guess i'll just have to come out to cali to visit:)

  3. Lindsey that movie was ridiculous! No story line ever! I'll be back. And possibly will be moving back when I finish school. I wish I could stay.